Tuesday, March 20, 2012

泪奔

刚追完一出香港剧---> On Call 36 小时。

也不知泪腺为什么这么发达,就不听使唤地流呀流,虽然知道那只是一出戏。

一向来对医生都有特别的感觉,看了这出电视剧,更让我对医生更深一步的了解。

剧中的对白真的很写实,也很感动。让我领悟了很多人生道理。

1. 医生不是法官,不是由他们来断定谁对谁错,谁应该先得到治疗,或不应该得到治疗。

只要是进到医院的病人,都要一视同仁。

*在很多时候,我们看到的都是有钱人压死人。常常人们都认为穷人家命都比较贱,没钱生病就是

等死。这句话希望医生们可以真正的领悟。

2. “当苦难发生的时候,人为什么总是喜欢问为什么?我想可能是因为人们忘记了,这些其实是我们生命中必经的一部分,所以当死亡接近我们的时候,我们会变得很惊慌很无助,我们就会不停地问为什么。只要我们认真地记住,每一个人其实都会死,我们就会懂得珍惜余下的日子。”

*当不如意的事发生时,我真的只会问为什么,为什么上天要这样对我,为什么别人可以我就不可以。但是往往我们已经忘了其实是我们不懂得珍惜之前好的事情,当坏事发生是就觉得这一切都好像世界末日了。

3.“并非每个人早上出门后都能能确保自己晚上会安全到家,你知不知道那些回不到家的

人,带着多少遗憾离开这个世界吗?你四肢健全,健健康康,有自由选择自己想做的事,就

凭这个条件,世上已有很多人 已被及都羡慕不来。”


* 我从来也不会想如果今天我不能平平安安的回家,我会有什么遗憾。因为我们已经习惯把每一

天变的那么的理所当然。生病的人会把每一天都认为这是赚来的。

4. "每个人对生命都有不同的期望。期望带来痛苦,但却因为有期望,无论多痛苦,我们都

可以熬过去。”

*人们常说,我们一定要有梦想,因为梦想让我们活的更有意义,有了梦想就有期望,期望梦想能

实现的一天。 但往往梦想成真不是一件简单的事,就因为不简单,当成真是会更加珍惜。


5. 父母是我们人生的一半。。。你的人生计划,有 他们在里面吗?

* 我们有时会很任性的做自己想做的事,因为我们认为这是我们的人生。在这当中,也许伤了父

母的心。 我们有没有想过,父母就是我们人生的一半,所以我们的人生计划怎么能少了他们的参

与呢?

6. "健康的人不一定快乐。不健康的人也不一定不快乐”。

*我们会认为不健康的人一定不快乐,因为他们要承受病魔的折磨,又怎么会快乐呢?但有时候错

了,就应他们要受病魔的折磨,所以更珍惜每一天能活下来的机会。反观健康的人为每一天而

烦,哪有时间快乐呢?

7. “ 沒人知道生命的長短,即使我們是醫生,也不能保證自己長命百歲,所以結婚誓詞沒說

要保證白頭偕老,卻要保證無論健康疾病都要在一起。 ”

*我现在才知道结婚誓词是没有白头偕老的。但那个场景真的很感动,骗了我不少眼泪,结婚誓词

的意义真的很重大,我以前都认为只是一个程式,真正了解的人又有几个呢?

剧里面还有很多很多很经典的对白,每看一集都认为自己学了一点点,一出亲情,爱情,友情,

病人,上司的连续剧。值得一看。


Saturday, March 10, 2012

First concert in my life ~



Concert is an indescribable word in my dictionary. This is because it's too expensive for me. I think it's not worth to spend at least RM200 to see someone that I know him/her but she/he doesn't know who am I. BUT, I still hope that I have a chance to see at least once in my life. This is an experience/ memory for me in my life. I plan to see the concert after I got the job, at least I spend my own money.

Very surprisingly that I made a wish and my wish came true. I was so lucky that I got the free ticket of Lee Hom's concert. Wow, I really couldn't believe I was so lucky until I got the tickets. So, I gave my first time to Lee Hom. =)

Overall for the concert, it was very exciting. Lee Hom is very handsome and talented singer. I am his fans but not super fans. Those super fans were very very very exciting to sing aloud his song. But, the stage and the screen were amazing. I need to give a like to the person who incharge on that. The animation was so fantastic. People went the concert because of Lee Hom but for me, I went there because of the animation.

I gain experience from this concert. Firstly, I should buy the most expensive ticket or the cheapest ticket. Never buy for others. Secondly, you can bring camera although the ticket stated that you can't bring it. I think I am the ONLY ONE to follow the rules =.=lllll. Last but not least, you need to practise ALL the song so that you can sing together with him/her.

This is a great experience for me. I can see Lee Hom before end of the world. Next target, Mayday's concert. I hope I am lucky enough to get a free ticket again..haha~ but in reality, I need to work harder to buy the ticket. :P



那一年的二月~



二月是一个短暂但幸福的月份。
虽然才有那么的二十八天, 但每一天都充满了‘爱’。
很幸运的我,在二月的第二十五天出生。
今年的二月第二十五天有点不一样,依然是我的生日,但多了一个重大的日子,我的好老板结婚了。
真的很开心时这一天,让我的生日变得不一样,更有意义。

还记得她告诉我要结婚的那一刻,还没有定日期,只说要在二月,我就开玩笑的说, “就在二月二十五吧,那天是好日子,因为是我的生日”,但她只说会看看。想不到当我知道真的是那天时,我有点吓到,真的还以为你是和我开玩笑的。

“老板,老板”, 应该也叫了四年了吧。我们真的很有缘。第一次认识你就在 BP 的一间大学,面试进大学的教育系。我就排在你前面吧。还记得你问我 Sultan 的名字,我已经忘了有没有给你答案。进了大学后,可以和你同班,又只有我们两个华人拿 Moral。 有很多人看不起我们拿 Moral 的, 但我们坚持也知道我们要拿这科的目的,所以不断互相鼓励对方。 一直到最近的面试,我们还是在一起了。一直很相信缘分的我,相信这就是缘分,把我们的心系在一起。谢谢你在我的人生出现,和你分享喜怒哀乐的日子,真好!!

就在二月的第二十五天,看见你和他手牵手的步入礼堂,真的很感动,有点想哭的感觉,因为我知道你很幸福。谢谢你让我二月的这一天变得更特别,更有意义。要幸福哦~

二月就不知不觉的走了,快乐的时光总是这么快过。但庆幸的是,这个二月我有好好地珍惜每一天,就期待明年的二月,我会想念你的。 有种预感,接下来的日子会更好。=)

Monday, January 9, 2012

New year resolutions 2012 =)

Wow, it's 2012. Hope this year is not end of the year because I have many things need to do. This year my first time to write my new year resolutions here because I want to remind myself to complete what I have promised.

1. Save $$$.
2. Be a better/ smart person-- read more books, don't get angry and cry so easily.
3. Do charity at least once a month.
4. Give a better life to my parents.
5. Go for a trip with family.
6. If can....get a boyfriend this year :P

Hope this year is better than last year. =)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

冲动~

人的一生,是应该要有冲动的。
我有时做事很冲动,但有时应该冲动时又不冲动。
冲动可以给我勇气去做我想做的事。
就好像要和一个人表白时,冲动可以让你有勇气去说出你要说的话。
但如果时间拖得越长,那股冲动就渐渐地消失了。

最近很烦一件事,在想要不要到新加坡打工,消磨时间。
人生无常,我不是想浪费时间在等待,更不想一年之后我的回忆里是 0。
当我下定绝心要到开始体验我的新生活时,我还是没有踏出第一步。
到现在,那股冲动已经是渐渐消失了。
因为害怕,所以不敢踏出第一步。
因为害怕,所以好在原地踏步。
因为害怕,所以想很多。
我害怕我会后悔。
朋友都说我身在福中不知福,要去受苦。
但想体验一下不同的生活。
有的朋友很支持我,人生不要留白嘛。

希望不管多辛苦,也要坚持。
因为我要赚人生的一笔财富~人生经验。

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

11-1-11

I just found that I didn't update my blog for 1 year...Time flies..1 year just past like that..
Today is 11-1-11..A special date for human being and I hope something special happen to me in some special date..But very sad to say that everytime I hope for nothing and my wishes never come true..
New year new hope..I gave up him from my heart.( I hope I really do, sometimes I will miss him but I try to control myself) I know it is time to give up and I don't want to waste my time on him anymore, it's enough for me to spend 3 years..I felt tired and just want to let my heart to rest for a moment. Time can make me see the reality and truth..
This is my last semester and I just want to enjoy my life in this year..
I don't want to think much..just do my best in everyday..i believe this year is better then last year because is rabbit year... :)

Monday, March 1, 2010

End of February...

二月的最后一天就这样悄悄地走了。。。会有谁会想念和不舍二月的离去。。可是我真的很不舍。
不舍的原因是因为二月带给我很多的回忆---新年,生日,情人节(虽然我没有庆祝),很多很开心的日子,有时我回想,为什么二月总是如此的短暂,就只有仅仅的二十八天。也许快乐的日子总是那么的快过。。
今天我又胡思幻想了一轮,我在想我真的很傻,因为他永远都不知道我在等他,各自的生活都不一样了,有没有联络,我不知道他过得怎样,他也不知道我过得怎样,我们就好像是两个不认识的人,想想也是蛮可悲的。。为什么会是这样的呢?还记得你和我说我们之间的距离就是一颗心的距离,当时的我不相信,因为我相信只要彼此都有心,不会有什么距离,但原来是我不明白也不要接受,你心中已经有人了。我一直单纯地认为只要我努力点,一切都会改变的,但一切的一切都不是这样的。。现在终于明白什么是一颗心的距离,不管怎样我们彼此之间还是有彼此又不能达到的距离,也许目标不一样了吧。。
我是不是应该放弃了呢?我的理智告诉我是时候放了,但我的另外一条鱼还抱着那么一点点的希望,希望会有那么一天,奇迹会出现。这就是有期望就有失望,就算伤了一次又一次,我还是可以告诉自己,“美怡,没关系,明天会更好。”
我不喜欢这样的自己,我要做回我自己,不想再做一个懦弱的女生,在别人的眼里,我是一个坚强的人,但为什么我却好像一个无知少女,每天等待着一些没有可能发生的事?
黄小琥的一首歌说出了我的心声:

没那么简单: 想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆...

想念真的很伤心,但想念是最开心的,在DEWAN MAKAN 会想起一起吃饭的日子,在IS 会看到你在读书的时候, 还记得你每次都会坐在同一个桌子,一面听歌,一面读书,很认真的。不知从几时开始我开始留意你的一举一动,开始关心你的喜怒哀乐。。

我不知道几时才会忘记这一切,但当我忘记时,我希望我能坦诚地告诉你这一切,我期待这一天的到来。。。

Friday, February 26, 2010

2522010--a special and big day for me


My 23rd years old just say hi to me..
25/2/2010 is a special and memorable day for me..
I celebration formally 2 times and informally 1 time, therefore total is 3 times..this is my first time celebrate my birthday 3 times in my life man..wow...but it is great..
Thank you to all my friends..
I think that I am very lucky to have those friends..play, laugh and cry together...although sometimes I do expect more in my relationship..I think I need to learn how to appreciate all things and become a mature person... this is my target in this tiger year..
Honestly, I expect that he will at least send me a message..but he is not..I always asking myself when can I put down everything...too high expectation just will bring disappointment...I know that I cant expect anything because he doesn't know anything about that..What I did is just secret and I myself know that..I don't want to think that anymore...I can SURVIVE!!!
Make a wish to myself, I hope my dreams can come true...
“简单也是一种幸福”,只要一切平平安安,我就已经心满意足了。。。

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Happy Tiger year


Chinese New Year is my favourite festival while times fly when we feel the happiness.
Today is chu 8 and I already back to college.
Chu 1 to chu 5 hang out with friends.
This year didn't spend much time with my family.
Different chinese new year this year because I went to Malacca to watch movie.
This is the first time I went to malacca with friends during chinese new year.
We play, we laugh, we joke...Have fun with them.
After back from malacca, I straight away change my dress and continue my activity with form 6's friends.
This year less many 'bai nian' kaki..feel disappointed but still ss with them.
We played 'heart attack'.
Chu 5 is the most memorable day..because kee yeong, ming cher, hui xian and soon peng came to muar...As usual we visit muarians' house and have fun with them..
We played 'heart attack' again in ah siong's house. I suggested to play that but I am the loser..sigh#
For me, this year is different with the previous year...Just hope that everyone is shun shun li li and ping ping an an...get whatever you want to get...

Monday, February 15, 2010

Different Chinese New Year & Valentine day..

This year Valentine day and Chinese New Year fall on the same date which is 14th feb.
Actually this is a good date because I can celebrate Chinese New Year and Valentine day together although I am still single..
This year a bit different because I celebrate my Valentine day with my family, friends and relatives. Enjoy the day because I never celebrate Valentine day before but this year I can celebrate it although not with my boyfriend. I still very because all my crazy friends let me laugh and talk non stop.
I met many friends who didn't contact for long time. But we still can chat. I really hope that times can pass slower.
A bit different with Chinese New Year because we didn't celebrate in my grandma's house. Quite sad in 1st day of Chinese New Year. Many unhappy things happen and I really don't wish to see those situation. Reunion is very important in one family. My dad told me siblings can become siblings because of FATE.. I remember FATE because I believe in fate. But not many people know how to treasure people around us. They tend to take for granted sometimes.
Anyway, I wish that my family have a great year and stay healthy. Happy always to my friends and family....to myself also...
Happy Valentine day to you and hope that you can achieve whatever you want in new year..

Saturday, February 6, 2010

6th Feb 2010---MKC 09/10




MKC is something meanigful and memorable for me..
Yesterday, my juniors did a great job because they have their MKC night and it was very successful.
Juniors gone through the hardest part but I do believe that they get the meaning of MKC. I hope that they can keep the spirit and burn it up next year..
Hope is always with me..
It is easy to give up while if you are never give up, you will find that the night is meaningful and memorable to you.
Feel touching in every performance especially the part where sing the CC song together. I feel the togetherness between juniors and seniors. I hope that everyone can remember this feeling and don
't forget the concept of 7th CC which is "7th CC, 1 family"...

CC hoseh!! MKC hoseh!! Seniors hoseh!! Juniors hoseh!!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Can I???

Stress, stress and stress..
These are the words popping my mind everyday..especially today..
Today I did a wrong thing, in my presentation.
In the beginning, everything is still ok...
Suddenly the laptop shut down and my mind became blank...
Maybe I am too depend on power point slides..
That is not a good thing because as a future teacher, everything is just finger tips.
We need to depend our own knowledge.
Simulated teaching is torturing me..
Lesson plan, lesson plan and lesson plan...
I need to plan everything and everything I plan need to base on students' centered.
I don't know whether I am ready to become a teacher, but I need to face the fact that it is time to get ready..I cant waste any single time..

Yesterday Pui Ying came to my room. At that time, I just realised that I have many things need to learn...A lot of things..I just live in my small world. I don't ever know what is insurans, investment etc..I really hope that I can learn now.. I don't want become a girl who is studying all the time but I don't have time to do that..I think I still poor in time management.

I hope that I can cope all this...And I must!! Sigh# I told myself like that but it is hard to do that..Pray hard in my simulated teaching and also my teaching practice...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

CC Dong Zhi 2009







Last Tuesday (12/1) was CC Dong Zhi (solstice festival). This is my last year in college to celebrate dong zhi. As usual, anyone who is free can help 2nd years make 'tang yuan'.

After having my dinner with jia wei and hui ing, I helped them to make 'tang yuan'. Not so many juniors join us made 'tang yuan'. But I still enjoy the process. We laugh, play and joke together.

2nd year prepared some activities to us. The touching part was I watched back my 1st year MKC. A lot of memories appeared in my mind. Especially the moment practised drum together. On the day of MKC, we support each other. After 2 years, the feeling still inside my heart. Nowadays, hard to find back that kind of feeling. Honestly, I am admire to those ex-seniors esp yi cong's batch, they still can keep their friendship well. I can feel that the unity between them. But sadly to say that, I can feel that feeling in my year. Anyway, I hope that we can treasure whatever we have now. Treasure our friendship. After few years, we still have reunion meal.

~Treasure everything~

Friday, January 15, 2010

Feliz ava novo~




Today is the second week of 2010. A lot of things happened in this two weeks..assignments, cc and choir. I feel sad, disappointed and I was cried. The feeling was so complicated. However, I can think some "moral values" after the incidents. Thank for Kang Wei for being my listener. I like to complaint about this and that. But he said that we are the one who makes the mistakes all the times. It is true..I admit that..Maybe because of that I do feel comfortable because just my own fault.

Last Christmas was a wonderful day for me. Because it was so special. I celebrated in Singapore with my kiko and licy. It was a nice experience for me. But, I think that the decoration in Malaysia is more beautiful than Singapore. Especially in Mid valley. I like the decoration. Take some photos with zu dian, yu wei , hui ing and yu peng in Mid Valley..wakakkakaka..

About my assignments, lesson plan, lesson plan and lesson plan..really make me suffer and crazy.I wish that I have another creative brain to think the lesson plan. It is really hard to do that. I know I can do that but it is not creative. I don't know how to be creative in that sense.

Anyway, I know that this year should be a good year for me..Jia you~ meyi..LIVE FOR MYSELF..IF I THINK I CAN, I CAN!!!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

06.12.2009

I asked for the result of SOS..One of my course in this semester.
I got a B-. Actually I really need to thank Buddha that I can get a B-. I don't have faith in this course. I can say that I don't have faith in most of the course. But I still need to thank Buddha because at least I passed this subject. I no need to retake. I knew that got 5 people in my class need to retake. But I am the lucky one. I knew that. I hope that I can get better result in the rest subjects. Hope so....
Today, nothing different..Just as usual..sleep, eat, watch drama series..But I watched one Taiwan drama series 'Gong Zu Xiao Mei' in Channel U. Actually I watched that before but I still watch it again. Xiao han said that, " When I can forget the feeling to you? ” Suddenly I think of him again. This few days don't know what happen to me.. Think nonsense all the time.. Maybe too free in house.. that cause me think a lot..
Last few days found that got a girl asked him to go her house to play games. I used to see his profile but I try to control myself. I know I should control myself. It hurts me a lot. I know that he will find a girlfriend some how. I still will wait him. But, can you please tell me if you got your Miss Right?? I will bless you if you get the real one. I hope you happy too..But I hope I can know.At least tell me that,ok?? I am telling to myself because I know that he will not know that and won't read this blog..But I pray hard that you can know. I just want to let myself let go..That all..I don't have other meaning..Really...(although I hope it wont happen because I will very very sad..)

Friday, December 4, 2009

一个梦想。。

昨天是爸爸的生日,每年的生日都是早上起床后就和爸爸说声:“爸,生日快乐。” 爸爸总是会我一句“谢谢”。
今 年的生日也不例外,虽然很想和他一起庆祝,但爸爸有糖尿病,不能吃甜的东西,所以妈妈不给我买蛋糕。要出去也要经过很多关。从小到大,我要和朋友出去或是 去哪里,都不是件简单的事。妈妈会问东问西。我明白我一直都是他们眼中的小孩,不管我现在已经是成年人了。朋友常好奇的对我说:“我都已经那么大了,为什 么要出门还是那么的难?”要和他们解释需要很长的时间,我这人也不喜欢做什么解释,所以干脆不用解释,我自己明白就好。
就这么过了一天,爸爸的生 日也过了,妈妈只煮了爸爸爱吃的菜肴,也没什么庆祝,生日就过了。心里有点不好受。其实我一直有一个梦想,就是等爸妈退休后,带他们去吃好的,和看场电 影。可能在其他人的眼中,这只是一件非常简单的事,怎么会是个梦想呢?但在我的眼里,这是个很难达到的梦想。从小到大,爸爸忙工作,妈妈忙照顾一家,有时 连在一起吃饭的时间都很少,更不用说一起出去。在大学读书时,看要一家大小一起出去,就算是吃一顿饭,我都很羡慕,羡慕他们可以一起吃饭。
最近发现爸爸老了许多,可能是没有牙齿的关系,所以看起来好像老阿伯,看了真的心痛,岁月不饶人,这句话是真的。有时会在想,朋友生日或是自己生日,都有一大班的朋友一起庆祝,但父母的生日,却没有人庆祝,想到这里就有点心虚,是不是有时忽略了他们呢??
不管怎样我还是相信,只要我有心,一定可以实现我的小小梦想。不只要带他们看电影,还要带他们去旅行。爸爸最喜欢旅行了。。我期待那么一天,希望他们健健康康。
爸爸,生日快乐,身体健康。。

小小贴士:不管是什么梦想,我相信一定会有实现的一天。我期待那么一天。那你呢?你的梦想又是什么??只要有心,就算不能实现,可是至少努力过,不是吗??